in the game you say it is time
to stop being obnoxious it is
morning in the year of Our
Tiger twenty twenty-two
feels like a glitch to write
over and over but living
like this with imposed
time limits before ice
scrapes off my vehicle
I lose sight of the sun
the windshield white
(originally published in Rundelania, Fall 2024)
season
March
Ohio temperature drops forty in
the span of a day and suddenly all
returns to a slow slog. Open
the window when waking up
to reveal the sky spat snow
but when I leave the house
for work sun’s out and wind
sings a chorus of cold. I don’t
know what to make of it anymore.
I left this state I’d-rather-not-
count-the-years-ago because of this
uncertainty planted in the dead
cement of winter’s sputtering
to life and again the interstate
is in view. Give me a reason
to again. Everything around me, how
the days don’t seem to pass anymore,
a shuffling of cards. I sit
waiting for the old dealer to
hand me a full house in the
amber glow of spring.
(originally published in Fine Lines, Winter 2022)
Fall, 2019
I’ve survived this far to get to fall,
and now auburn trees are nowhere.
Driving long distance– abundance
of green. Or branches, waiting for
that next temporary warmth. Used
to be we’d take a short vacation
to the northeast in October. Now
it’s a dice roll. Can’t take time off
at all for Maine. Can’t lose a single
dollar, lest dead leaves will cover
the lawn, the mouth, the moon.
(originally published in Fishbowl Press, Winter 2020)
Mid-December
The alley is paved with old bricks
blackened by rain. I used to want
conformity, that tidal hope gripping
your gut. You must have a family soon.
Everywhere babies are sprouting
but garden sprinklers are off because winter
is near, crackled dirt longing for storm–
how long since the rough of gale and rain?
Seasons, in these frigid airs. And my seedling
heart stopped growing soon after its first beat.
(originally published in The Coachella Review, Winter 2017)
Landfill
I am a sitting landfill beef
lettuce special sauce
a sepulchur in my Ford
& in this warm January
the trees are still dead
one eye open I imagine
forests stretching tired
legs & staying silent when it’s time
to speak spring
(originally published in KAIROS, 2017)
If Nothing Else Changes, We’ll Still Say Fall
eighty degrees
in the second month
of our favorite season
and we bake apples
until the kitchen
smells of wax
and cinnamon
with gloves
we twist
out black bulbs
to replace our summer
clothes
despite the lingering
heat
(originally published in Raw Dog Press, Summer 2017)
Spring
everything springs to life
again your last
relationship your new
relationship these are strings
on never-ending
balloons with brains inside
of them and hearts
at the center of the brains
beating thinking
if we fly a little higher
there’s no going back
(originally published in Dragon Poet Review, Summer 2017)
Orchard
in the orchard, a mother drinks rosé, bites
into a granny smith. the other apples
are rotten now, well– autumn
peels history off barks. the trees become
malnourished skeletons, tiny skulls. forget.
over and over. bees gather nectar
and you almost forget to laugh. they pluck
the fruit. too young to remember, too
momentous. one time he played too close
to the hive– well, life isn’t honey, she said,
even if you are mine. finding a diamond
in a diamond mine. hey, that’s still special.
who’s to say if it’s worth anything. all her
jewelry. diamond in her open palm. show
me. oh, how it glistened– no one asks
anymore. she does not want anyone to.
(originally published in Botticelli Magazine, Spring 2016)
