The Inflatable Exhibition

Maybe the installation was overrated–
the advertisements got us, inflated
the necessity of PVC in the center
of the city. It is August and I wanted
to see you for who you were and you
let me. Our shoes were off and
in the green shining light we were
vibrant. In the red we could not tell
each other apart from the screaming
strangers’ children, as indistinct
as silhouettes, palettes upon which
we draw the lines we see ahead; the vents
streaming air; the eighteen rooms we lost
ourselves in but not the sense of time,
which was kind of the point:
already we are labyrinths
so why pay to see
ourselves out? Not that we could
even. Had to find a blue GUIDE to point
us slightly in the direction of exodus,
another tube to lead us into the open
patio with the mobile bar selling
orange crush and cucumber vodka
with twenty other people seeking
air, or at least a chair
to sit, in which I am
wondering how close to sit
beside you? The answer
in the atoms wobbling between
us, the slight tilting of light.

(originally published in The Seraphic Review, Fall 2023)

Forty Years From Now, This Poem Will Make Sense (Disregard if Forty Years Have Passed)

I am sentient
enough– half-
asleep at the
wheel

I already
miss you
if I miss
my turn,

misguide
my controlling
hands into
another lane.

I have a tote
of sorrows
lugged
into a luggage,

third floor closet,
plastic blue bag
crinkling
in the night.

I wish–
I want–
you never
to read them.

This is a message
to me
from half
my current age–

though revelation
is what
I want
to avoid,

it is now
(was?)
true.

(originally published in Lothlorien Poetry Journal, Fall 2023)

Bottle

corkscrew splits when prying loose
coppola‘s aged cabernet sauvignon

you once opened a bottle in a hotel
with a flatiron i bring down a steamer

the bottle perspires with no release my cat
nearly walks into the heat i’m thankful you are

present my spine so soft can’t keep anyone
safe best not dwell my memories

are triglycerides clinging the tender
parts of brain we go downhill to rite-aid

we’re told it’s barren look elsewhere
a beer store closing the clerk in desperate

gasp seeks three screws he can use
to make a tool makeshift but alas

the shoe method works he says take
your boot pound with force try

as we might against my home’s brick no
way to get how we feel into the open

(originally published in RUNDELANIA, Fall 2024)

Scalloped Potatoes

Now I have time
to experiment
          preheat the room to three twenty five
          saute the onions in butterflies
          pour in garlic and butterflies
          milkwhisk the butterflies
          scrape the wings off my heart
          and wait   wait   sixty-five to eighty–
to say what I have to say to you–
I can’t wait another minute.

(originally published in The Gorko Gazette, Summer 2024)

A Light Snow Through the Window

Out of all activities
to do in the world,
we choose to watch

what melts. The sugar-
frosted grass, low hills, love
of our red-brick building.

If our conversations
are jet streams, if high-
altitude, high stakes,

tension– let me
please leave and be
reborn as something cold

and forgettable.
What dinosaur wanted
to become a fossil?

In our years together
we accumulated enough
to burrow deep into

the earth. Millions
of years from now,
what some sentience

will discover is that
we were once separate.

(originally published in The Field Guide, Fall 2023)

Tamales at Andrea’s

At her Penn Hills home an endless view
of rain green wide windows. With sink hot
faucet water we tear banana leaf a piece
of wallpaper press the masa they prepped
into dried dark a sturdy table.

Drop sauce, fork pork, wrap ribbon
makes pride and we learn to live
again. Almost a year still fresh
the big bowl of dead animal we gather
around. Andrea says steam in leaf

adds floral flavor, a life
to death jiggling within us–
oh, sweet touch of camaraderie,
hugs on a late December
Saturday. You were afraid

we started the day too early, but
we are in our mid-thirties. I wanted
to begin yesterday the festivities
that let us remember why we
remain alive– brown butter cookies

and the love, so much love in the living
room. When we get to the presents–
having already unwrapped our proud
banana leaves, there are Penguin
classics, band t-shirts, soy candles

but what we’d trade for anything–
white elephant– is more time.

(originally published in Triggerfish Critical Review, Summer 2024)