Even then, horror films teach us
to anticipate limbs rising from
coffin, wails from a mouth who
once had all teeth extracted
on a routine dentist visit.
If you never see the body,
death never happened.
My brother, who did not learn
to swim, sailed with the Coast
Guard. After that he never left
Ohio again. He is confined
somewhere, beyond some wall,
as far from me now
as he was before.
(originally published in The Headlight Review, Winter 2022)
Month: November 2024
Scattered Branches
We hammered tent pegs
into the ground and crawled
inside a sleeping bag beside
a buzzing lamp, then zipped
the moths away, all except
the ones crawling at the tip
of tongue, our what-are-we-
when-we-wake-up– your
finger to my mouth to shush
my brain, our lips wingtips
fluttering, fluttering, fluttering.
(originally published in Agony Opera, Summer 2021)
Early Twenties
At Giesen Haus late, we drink long
islands on empty stomachs until
we make nacho shots – chips loaded
with beans, jalapeños, cheese, the finisher
being the rest of our twenty-
two-ounce Doppelrocks. Because
the Haus is closing (we do not
know soon, for good), we
walk the blurred street to
The Basement, get another ale,
maybe two. We tweet Rob
Delaney when we decide we need
thirteen more drinks before the end.
We make another shot, the Dog Blowjob–
Raspberry, Blue Raspberry, Jameson–
IHOP at 2 AM, our waitress tells us a time
she was stuck in the snow, drunk, and a
customer paid her for sex. Cinnamon
pancakes, hash browns, we wait what feels
like forever amid endless summer now
that we are adults. 5 AM we walk back
to Giesen Haus and somehow, I drive us back
now. We cruise down Whipple to Bloom’s
hypnotic Wild, witnessing the sun attempt
to rise from the depths of night. In a few hours
I finish reading Conrad’s Heart of Darkness,
which I want to like, then watch birds
in branches with binoculars received
in the mail. I peer through all the nothingness
green. I start Siddhartha, play Skyrim, binge
Breaking Bad. Later in the week, I put in
thirty hours of restaurant work with
all the time in the world.
(originally published in Dreich Magazine, Summer 2020)
Having Won a Two-Day Trip to Hawaii
We wait in the endless line on principle–
backpacks full of familiar belonging,
dreaming to get away. This past decade:
a years-long playback on one of those
stereos everyone wanted. A CD requiem
that spun, skipped, shook–
and is now obsolete.
(originally published in Winamop, Winter 2023)