Vodka I would glug from a wound
on my forearm, health preached and instructed.
I said I saw a liver pumping liquid from the sky
but the crowd called it cirrus. I could not differentiate
lust from love, not in the waning daylight,
not when I am trying to make it
the rest of the year wanting to forget
its starting incident (the backyard pond
shimmering in the moonlight amidst televisions
of confetti). The public countdown ends
at zero but I keep counting, never an end in sight,
always with my eye on the next
golden apple to descend into a crowd.
(originally published in BOMBFIRE, Spring 2021)